I’ve given up on giving up slowly,
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
Because I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house, all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way of knowing where to go, promise I’m going
Because I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way, and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house, all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going
Because I gotta get outta here
'Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going
Because I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You

Your sorry eyes cut through the bone
Make it hard to leave you alone
Leave you here wearing your wounds
Waving your guns at somebody new

Baby you're a
lost, baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost cause

There's too many people you used to know
They see you coming, they see you go
They know your secrets, and you know theirs
This town is crazy, nobody cares

I'm tired of fighting,
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause

There's a place you are going
You ain't never been before
No one laughing at your back now
No one's standing at your door
That's what you thought love was for

I'm tired of
fighting, I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost
cause

Like a Saturday night, I'll be gone
Before you knew that I was there

So you wrote it down, I'm supposed to care?
Even though it's never there?
Sorry if I'm not prepared.
Is it hard to see the things you subsitute
For me and all my thoughts of you
It's eating me alive to leave you

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song
Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong...

Don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
Don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me in lieu of this song...

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't want to wake the eyes that make me melt inside
If it's healthier to let you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

I'm finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft
I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it, and I'll reappear

From the start it was shaky, with the characters rash
A nice setting for heartbreak where emotions come last
All I have inside to overcome this desire
Are friendly intentions and fairweathered smiles...

And I don't wanna be wrong
But you're leaving me in lieu of this song
Don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me in liu of this song...

Like a Saturday night I'll be gone
Before you knew that I was there

Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep, it's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast just to feel the danger
I wanna scream, it makes me feel alive

[chorus:]
Is it enough to love
Is it enough to breathe
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary, please.

To walk within the lines would make my life so boring
I want to know that I have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet, c'mon now, give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

[chorus]

Let down your defenses
Use no common sense
If you look, you will see
That this world is a beautiful accident,
turbulent succulent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep, it's my lullaby

[chorus]

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

Chorus

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Try to tell me what I shouldn't do
You should know by now,
I won't listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go

You don't always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
And put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air
Like you don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

On my own
Let it go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Just let me live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line? Well, I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said it.
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

You wait up for me, I don't wake up for you
Would you like my company, or are you sick of me?
When your love lets you go you only want love more
Even when love is not what you were looking for

Speak slow
Tell me love, where do we go?
Where do we go?

You get down and plead your case
I don't know what to say
I leave my heart all this pain and now I'm at it all again
On these streets that I leave for weeks on end
Who's to blame?
When you want love, doesn't matter what you're looking for

Speak slow
Tell me love, where do we go?
Where do we go?

I'm so far away, I just can't see you
I'm so far along, and I just don't need you
I'm so alone, so alone, so alone, so alone

When your love lets you go, you only want love more
Even when love's not what you were looking for

Speak slow
Tell me love, where do we go?
Where do we go?

no matter which way you go
no matter which way you stay,
you're out of my mind
out of my mind.
i was walking with a ghost,
and i said please, please dont insist
i was walking with a ghost,
and i said please, please dont insist.

(repeats)

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After all...if you repeat something enough, doesn't it make it true?

It was one hundred degrees,
As we sat beneath a willow tree,
Whose tears didn't care, they just hung in the air,
And refused to fall, to fall.

And I knew I'd made horrible call,
And now the state line felt like the Berlin wall,
And there was no doubt about which side I was on,
Mmm-hmm.

Cause I built you a home in my heart,
With rotten wood, meant to cave from the start.

Cause you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
No you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.

I braved treacherous streets,
And kids strung out on homemade speed.
And we shared a bed in which I could not sleep,
At all, woo, hoo, woo, hooOoOo.

Cause at night the sun in retreat,
Made the skyline look like crooked teeth,
In the mouth of a man who was devouring, us both.

You're so cute when you're slurring your speech,
But they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.

And you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
No you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.

I'm a war, of head versus heart,
And it's always this way.
My head is weak, my heart always speaks,
Before I know what it will say.

And you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
No, you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
(And you can't find) And you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
There were churches, theme parks and malls,
But there was nothing there all along.